Monday, March 23, 2009

{my birthday}

{in review}

casey, my beloved husband, has been working since he's know me to break my birthday {curse}.
he began the year he asked me to be his {wife}.
each year keeps getting better.
this year was no exception.
{i had a great birthday weekend}
and a fun time celebrating my bday the weekend before.

i'll start in {chronological} order.
on friday march 13, my dear friends Jessica and Jen planned to kidnap me.
{casey was in on it}
i was swept away friday afternoon to denver.
we went to a {tasty} dinner at an asian food place.
went to a {ritzy old rich person} bar in our hotel where we watched a whole slew of intoxicated, wealthy, {elderly} men and women play the piano and sing their falsetto hearts out. one woman was even wearing a large white fur hat.
we continued {after the singing was done} up to our room in the
{brown palace hotel}
to stay in our
{celebrity suite}.
I slept in a giant absolutely incredible bed, sprawled out all by myself.
we slept in then went to breakfast at
{crepes n crepes}.
did a little shopping and chatting.
it was a great weekend!

this friday, march 20th
i enjoyed lunch at rhasta pasta with my lovely {mom e} and friend tonia.
watched a movie while the girls napped.
my handsome husband took me out on a date to
{the rustic oven}
i enjoyed some ok raviolis, a delicious glass of wine, and the incredible company and conversation of the man i love.
then we headed over to millenium.
what's {millenium} you ask?
a tattoo parlor.
i got new ink. it didn't hurt too bad.
on saturday, the girls and i lounged around until about 10am. nice.
i went and got my hair cut. did a little strolling in old town. enjoyed some {me} time.
casey grilled up some braught's for dinner.
he gave me the {twilight} dvd....which i proceded to watch.
and we had a low key relaxing (after church) day on sunday.


i had a great birthday.
not to mention the {loads} of sweet birthday cards that littered my mail box all week. thanks everyone!

Monday, March 16, 2009

{it's happening}

what's {it} you ask?
i'm turning {26} on friday...and i was already having a mini meltdown that i will now be closer to age 30 then age 20....and then it happened.
i was doing the obligatory eye brow plucking when i noticed them.
gray hairs.
when delaney was about a year old, i noticed a significant decrees of hair on the crown of my head. I told casey about it and he tried to tell me my hair had always been that thin and you could always see my scalp so clearly.....
yeah right.
So i tried not to think about it.
when i was heavy with child {amelia to be exact} i went to my brutally honest turkish stylest.
he proceeded to tell me, i was balding.
i started using some special shampoo and conditioner.
then, when amelia was about 5 months old my hair {really} started to fall out.
it was all i could do to not cry every time i took a shower and saw the {clump} of hair in my hand.
i went to the dr. we tested my thyroid. nothing. it {could} have been that after pregnancy i had a hyper-active thyroid that regulated itself...but we're not sure.
i started taking a {special} medication to hopefully gain some re-growth.
before long, i started to see these little feathers peeking out from my scalp.
i was {so} happy! my hair is growing back!
then there was today.
when i found them.
i've always been a hair coloring kinda gal. i just like to change things up, and i did that by coloring my hair. however, because my hair was growing back, i've not colored my hair in {many} months.
it's official. though i'm growing hair back there is a {significant} amount growing in
what to do, what to do, what to do?!?!?!?!
I think that women who have a head full of silver look {indeering} and {beautiful} and {wise}.
So what do i do? Let my silver grown in? Cover it up with Dark Chocolate 204 from the box?

What would {you} do?

Monday, March 9, 2009

{He cannot lie}

In my one year bible reading plan, i'm currently going through Hebrews.
It's refreshing and incredible to me how, though i can read something before, God can bring it into a {new light} for me each time i read it.
This is how it's been for me reading {Hebrews}.
I'm not going to claim to be an incredibly {insightful} person, though each time i read the {Word} i pray with eager anticipation and expectation that God would give me understanding and wisdom in what i read, and i feel blessed and rejoice that He has so {intimately} spoken to my heart these last few days. and i just wanted to share that with {you}!

{Hebrews 2: 8-9}
-Now in putting everything in subjection to him, he left nothing outside his control. As present, we do not yet see everything in subjection to him. But we see him who for a little while was made lower than the angels, namely Jesus, crowned with glory and honor because of the suffering of death, so that by the grace of God he might taste death for everyone-

Sometimes i feel so {out of control}. I feel helpless.
BUT! I'm not supposed to be in control! According to the Word, {everything} is in {subjection} to God, and i don't see it all. Yet, what i do see is {Jesus}, who IS in control. And i can live peacefully in the truth that Jesus came down from the heavens, suffered, and tasted death, by the {grace of God} for me and everyone else.
I {praise} Jesus, crowed with glory and honor!
I need to release all things, {husband}, {children}, {home}, {finances}, {fear}, {insecurities}, to be in {subjection} to God.

Then, i read this.

{Hebrews 6: 18-19}
-so that by two unchangeable things, in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled for refuge might have strong encouragement to hold fast to the hope set before us. we have this as a sure and steadfast anchor of the soul, a hope that enters into the inner place behind the curtain.-

i {struggle} with my past. i do.
i have trouble leaving behind who i {was} and moving forward with who i now {am}. i am ridiculously {insecure}. seriously.
i praise God for my patient and gentle husband who has helped me wade through so much of the {muck} from my past.
because of this insecurity, it's only {too} easy for satan to whisper those choice morsels, those lies into my ear. and it's only too easy for me to swallow them down and believe them.
But, as God is {faithful} to do, He spoke His word directly to my heart. His words spoke {richly} to me and was like sweeting {singing} to my ears.
Again, i {praise} God for his written Word, available at any time, speaking {truth} to my foolish heart.
Like i said, i've read it before, but it was new to me as i read it {this} time.
You've no idea what it does for me to realize and hear the words that it is impossible for God to lie.
Every word that God has spoken is true. And since i know i can trust God's word, my heart exhalts! I know that when i hear the whisper of satan's destructive lies, i can {flee} to God, my refuge, and i can hear God not whisper, but boldly, loudly, and clearly speak His truth over me, and that this will be a {sure and steadfast} anchor to my soul.
It will anchor me to God's steady and trustworthy side.
My heart rejoices!
I don't have to believe the lies of my past. I can trust in God's unfailing, unshakable, {truth}!.
I feel {free}.
I feel {lighter}.
I feel {jubilious}.
This needs to be {burned} on my heart, it needs to be {always} on my tongue...
...{God is truthful, He cannot lie}!

Believe Him.