Sunday, August 30, 2009


{sometimes} i wonder why God reveals to a woman that she is pregnant, if she is then going to miscarry.
i mean, technically, i know {why} miscarriage can happen...but on the {spiritual} side i wonder why God reveals a pregnancy that's not going to progress.
i believe and trust that God knows each of my children, those here on earth, and those who never made it out of my womb.
i believe that God is intentional and purposeful.
but what is the point of finding out that you even were pregnant if the pregnancy isn't going to make it?
i mean, if God know's that a pregnancy is going to fail, that He's never going to place that baby on earth, in my arms, why allow the pregnancy {in the first place}?

{sometimes} i just wonder what's the point in knowing.
what's God's intentions in that?

sorry to be so redundant. just working through it.

{can you believe it?}

Last week, my Itty Bitty turned {1 year old}.
This year absolutely flew by.
As cliche as it may sound, {they grow so fast}.
So fast.
She was so tiny, and i loved her instantly.
Her newborn smell.
Her newborn sounds.
Her tiny newborn chicken legs (which are most definitely NOT chicken legs any more....more like nice meaty drumsticks!)


I love this girl.
I love who she is.
I love that she is a {drama queen}.
I love that she thinks her big sister is the funniest person in the world.
I love that her first word was {mama} and is still her dominant word.
I love that she is all at the same time, tough...and delicate....and snuggley...and explorative.
Mostly, I love that she is my daughter.
I have the {privileged} and {honor} of getting to be her mama .
What a precious gift my generous Father has given me in her.

{Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward.
Psalm 127:3}

Enjoy the video of her first year of life.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009


do you ever:

look at
think about

someone you love, and all of the sudden
you feel this {overwhelming emotional} response?
i call these
{waves of love}
i get these

{sometimes} it even feels like my heart is gonna burst.
i can't stop this feeling,
deep inside of me.
ugachaka ugachaka
{i digress}.

side note:
often times i read people blogs and when they go off subject they bring themselves (and their readers) back by saying, i digress.
i've always wanted to be cool enough to say that.

i digress.

these waves of love,
that i {sometimes} feel.
i look forward to them. and it makes me thankful that i have such {amazing} people in my life to be able to feel this way about.

in fact,
i'm having one for {you} right now.

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{where can you get}

One of these {fabulous} Rag-a-Muffins?

at { Cherish Boutique}.
That's where.

217 Linden St # B
Fort Collins, CO
Just across the street from Old Town Square.

Go buy one now!

Thursday, August 6, 2009


{sometimes} casey makes me laugh so hard....
i {snort}.
then, when i remember that moment....say a day or so later,
i laugh so hard i snort {again}.
i l.o.v.e. this.
i love laughing so hard that i can't breath. and i nearly pee my pants.
the very first time i did it was when were were {freshly} dating.
can you say...embarrassing?
he just thought it was {ridiculously} funny.

i love hearing people laugh.
like the other night on a date with casey, there was a woman who's laugh was so bizarre...i nearly snorted right then and there.....but i mean, come on, i was at snorting allowed.
and i had a friend in high school, amanda, who has one of the best laughs i've e.v.e.r. heard.
so did our wedding photographer.
and so does my sister in law.
and do you know what is {great} about my husband?
he's a comedic genius and can imitate these people's laughs whenever i ask him.
which will likely cause me to fall into a fit of

have you ever made me snort?
do share.