{mama needs a day off}

being a mama is a whole whirlwind of emotions sometimes.

it has shaped and shaped and shaped me.

i used to look like a square, and now i'm sort of circular shaped...or heart shaped.

metaphorically, i mean.  

though, i suppose i'm a bit rounder then i used to be...

anyway.

i don't know about you other mama's out there, but sometimes you have one of {those}days.

the kind of days where if you hear one more {fussy}voice.

if you have to scrape {poop} out of one more pair of panties.

if you have to fold one more sock...

you might just pull your hair out.

i had one of those days this week.

i was feeling like i just so {desperately} needed a day off.

i needed to {get away} and take a break from being a mama.

casey came home from work and i let loose with my woe's of the day.

i asked him, could i get out for a bit?

go to a coffee shop and read a {non-fiction} book for a few hours?

my generous, patient, and understanding husband said, of course.

so after dinner and getting the kiddo's to bed i headed out.

i got my delicious {mexican mocha}.

and started to read.

aahhhh.

then do you know what happened?

guess.  just guess.

just a few short minutes in, i started to miss

casey 

cricket

itty bitty

and magruter.

even if they were at home sleeping, i wanted to be home. 

to be in proximity with them.

i am not {me}, without {them}.

as challenging as some days can be, i'll take it.

to get to be married to casey, mama to my 3 little's... i'll wipe every boogery nose.

i'll wash poopy panty after poop panty.

i'll play pretend for hours on end.

i'll get peed on while changing diapers. {actually, this has never happened to me, but i'd take it!}

it wasn't until i had kids that i realized what a selfish and lazy person i am.

i used to be a square.

but being a mom has rounded out those rough edges, and i'm now more circular.  i'm more complete.

cheesy. i know.  

but you know what else i know?

i am {blessed} and {privileged} to live the life i do.

these children of mine, they are a gift.

Psalm 127:3-5

Behold, children are a gift of the LORD,

         The fruit of the womb is a reward.

4Like arrows in the hand of a warrior,

         So are the children of one’s youth.

5How blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them;